i feel so alone. so so alone. unbearably alone. insanely alone. I was doing so well this morning why do i fuck up now?! people need me i…i’m yearning for your arms around me. i’m longing to be held. but you’re asleep and it’s unfair for me to say these things because you will blame… Read More
Tag: Fear.
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Suddenly, the future seems so lonely.
21.
1. I don’t like summer. I have too much time on my hands. I’m alone for too long. 2. I miss you. Like I’m always short of one breath. Like I’m missing a body part. I used to read in books how missing someone can make your heart hurt, but I’ve never thought it was… Read More 21.
Ten Kinds of Chest Pain:
(One.) The pessimistic perspective of your first heartbeat. (Two.) The slow motioned-crumpling of your chest that makes you feel like you’re drowning in your own blood, and leaves a sea of red mess around your crippled body afterwards. Breathing becomes too much. If symptoms persist, remove the heart to kill the pain. (Three.) The push of your mother’s… Read More Ten Kinds of Chest Pain:
18. (An apology letter.)
I’m sorry. I don’t know what’s happening to me. It was beginning to subdue to mere momentary flashes. Every Sunday, either at 3 pm or 3 am. There would be a spontaneous explosion of loud, unwanted thoughts- like fireworks, and they’d usually end up as tears. An hour or so of hiding in a corner, of… Read More 18. (An apology letter.)
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It’s humiliating, how it feels like I need you more than you need me. I don’t want to be this person anymore.
06.
“Of course they’re scared. That’s why they became monsters.” –Lettie Hompstock, The Ocean at The End of The Lane. Last night, my monsters came. They wouldn’t let me sleep. They were scared of being part of tomorrow. It’s already tomorrow, and I don’t want to get out of bed. I’m still scared. someone please help.… Read More 06.
Fly Higher, Icarus. 